The night before I slept a whole 4 hours. Night before that 3. Lat night I was so tired that I went to bed at midnight and woke up at 8am without one dream. That was nice. I'm still smoking but very little. Yesterday I may have had 5.
I was thinking about the money I will save. The one thing that I think will be the best out of all this is that I wont be dependent on anything. I wont have those nicotine fits any more. I wont have to go look for a place to have a smoke. When I go out to eat I wont be going outside in the smelly section listening to everyone cough just so I can bring my nicotine level back up and run back inside.
When I buy my next truck imagine how long it will keep that new truck smell. I wont have to worry about ashes all over the place or the ash tray filling up.
Once you think about it there are plenty of reasons not to smoke but I cant seem to think of any to smoke. Now that I'm quiting I notice people smoking around me. They remind me of mechanical entities that lift the smoking stick to there mouth, in hale, exhale. Lift, in hale, exhale. There is almost a lifeless look to them. I don't want to be one of those people any more. Face it, we all started smoking because our friends did and we thought it was cool. We caved to peer pressure. If you look at smoking as what it is you will realize that every one of us that smokes is weak minded. We wanted to look like the cool kids and smoke. We wanted to belong, fit in, look tough, be cool. We are all simply weak and there is no other way to describe it. We want our kids to do the right thing and say no to drugs, walk away. "Don't fall to peer pressure" we tell them as we exhale. What are we doing? How do we teach our kids to do the right thing when we ourselves are still smoking 20, 30, even 40 years after school ended. We are a living example to our children that we fell to peer pressure.
We should be as humiliated to smoke in front of people as we are running down main street naked. Lighting that cigarette out in public is like putting a neon light above our heads telling the world we are to weak to give up the addiction.
Funny thing is most of us condemn others addicted to meth, cocaine, heroin, alcohol or whatever stimulant they cant live without. Smokers are worse then any of these because we are in denial. We have been told that being addicted to these other things is bad so in turn we condemn these addicts like everyone else. We are sent the message everyday that drugs are bad but smoking is your right. Once again following the crowd because we are to weak to stand on our own or think for ourselves.
Smoking as bad. It kills. It affects families. People will dig butts out of the trash if they don't have a smoke. Fathers will tell there 4 year old they cant teach them to ride a bike today. Why? Because they cant run down the street holding the bike any more like they did for all his or her older siblings. I have watched full grown men at work risk there jobs smoking in company vehicles then lie about it over this addiction. They know if they lose the job there family has nothing yet the addiction is more important. People call yourself out. DO NOT allow yourself to make excuses for this addiction anymore.Its time we all see this for what it is. The worst drug allowed to be sold legally in this countries history. If we sued the tobacco industry and the government in a nationwide class action suit we would win. Once the government found out that this stuff leads to cancer and a whole book full of medical problems they did not stop its sale. It is still being sold openly and hooking more children everyday.
forgive me I tend to get carried away when I start to really give things thought.
I hope what I said opens at least one persons eyes to the reality of smoking and makes the rest of you think outside the box we are all in.
