Monday August 16th 2010
I normally get up at 6am each day yet today slept till 10:30. I had the hardest time falling asleep and when I did it was none stop dreams. The kind of dreams that never actually let you get into a deep sleep. They were all pleasant dreams with no nightmares to speak of.
When I did finally wake up I was in a different state of mind then anything that I have ever experienced before. I felt like my mind and body were separate entities. My body was wanting a smoke so bad and my mind had no need for it and was telling my body no. I didn't feel like I was going crazy or anything. I just felt like my mind was running the show not my body or my addiction to smoking.
My attitude today is lite. I almost feel as if I should be on sesame street. This is not normal for me as I am normally a very serious grumpy person.
The Chantix has definitely affected me but in a positive happy way. Tomorrow the dose starts to double so hang on this may become one wild ride.
